Sheeps Clothes

“From the ancient Inanna forcing herself to the underworld to visit her sister, Ereshkigal— passing through the seven gates of the underworld and then being hung on a hook, rotting— where she had to look at her sister, and her sister had to look at her. Both needed to see inside themselves, to see inside their own shadows. To come to terms with who they really were, not who they thought they were.”

― Tori Amos, Piece by Piece

I suppose that ground was already covered…

That you have to know yourself, to be your full self. Doesn’t make it any less true.

Well, today is a day for physical truth. I’ve committed myself to making real progress. A general summary being a re-wording of a Buddhist teaching – you are not who you were yesterday. Yesterday, you may have been too lazy to clean, to tired to cook, too ‘meh’ to get outdoors.

Today? Today, you get to be a new person. The only cost – you have to choose to be a new person.

I could have been too lazy to reach a coffee shop at an hour where I could get a prefered table. I wasn’t. I could still decide to go home and just watch dvds/play video games while surrounded by clutter, and be angry at the cat and my fiancee for pestering me/increasing the clutter.

Or.

Or I can go, clean, play with the cat, ask fiancee to help with the cleaning/cat playing, and then play video games while food cooks.

I wanna be that person. Because that person will write.

So that is todays discovery. That the ‘desire to write’ can be the sheeps clothing disguising procrastination of things I need to do to be able to write.

Time to get to it.